"The Debt That All Men Pay"

there once was a man

who had fallen asleep, at the wheel

he was driving all of his dreams

he awoke when he hit a tree

sayin wut ever happened,

happened to me...?

now im broken

dont u burry my ashes

just throw them

all across the ocean

theres nothing i can do or say

in worlds portrayed in blue and grey

ur 25 and still alive...

o god,

how great tho art

to give us this life

and let us fuck it all up

there once was a man

who had fallen asleep, at the wheel

he was trying not to scream

he laid waste to the haste in his days

nothing more can he do

nothing more left to say....

the debt that all men pay

now im broken

dont u burry my ashes

just throw them

all across the ocean

theres nothing i can do or say

too many lines fall by the way

ur 25 and still alive...

and this is where we missed the mark

where we were when we lost that spark

and let it wash away...

In Plans We Pave

find out, some how

thats where, ill be

if i should dream of brighter days

i hope u will stay

but if u leave...

we sing...

our last good byes until we die

we sing...

things have never been alright

but we sing...

yeah this isnt ur best

save ur worst for the rest

and that is all...

for i...

for i...

have missed

the whole point

if things should ever happen

yeah it wont be tru

and that is all that i ask

all i ask of u

this is....

we sing...

our last goodbyes until we die

we sing...

things have never been alright

but we sing...

never going never showing

but the fact is we're still here

and thats a testament to it all...

now we are

finding time

where does it go

in plans we've already paved

we find out hearts

are not at home

but i cant say no

no i cant say no...

and u ask wut am i supposed to do

im in love with u...

im in love with u...

and we sing...

"unbreakables"

now i wont call

wont bother u at all

just know one thing

yeah just know one thing...

wut lies become

the night beckons

the dawn,

and the worst in us...

i wont break it

wont stop the sound

from fallin down

fadin out

go tell the news

the reds, golds, and hues

have come for everyone...

this is the dawn of unbreakables...

these distractions i never wanted to keep

they lie inside haunting me, dragging me,

further down, further down...

and all the things that i wish that i could say

the words just shriveled up and fade away

but i guess i just did. i did? well then, anyway...

and its my addiction that causes my pain...

finding out,

wut makes things harder now

wut makes this louder now

i cant...

this is all we get...

this is all we get...

things that have come to pass

we fall victim to circumstance

and sometimes it takes more than we have

but...

this is the dawn of unbreakables...

when all the people have fallen asleep

all the things that could happen, happen to me

and im not the right person to tell

now i could never honestly

pretend to have my sanity

my mind, my voice, my heart, my soul

will break apart this toxic hold

and all the things we meant to say

the words will rot and fade away

and i will never give in to this

as i fall onto my knees...

as i fall onto my knees...

IT'S BEEN AWHILE...

hey guys! its been awhile... this post is gonna be more of a blog entry. i know i have not been keeping up with my post i just looked and i had no idea it has already been 2 months since my last post (thats terrible i know...). for this i do apologize. my life these days is very hectic, trying to fit in all the things that i need to do when ever i can, but unfortunately not as often as i would like. for those of u who may not know, i started music production/studio engineering courses at IAR (the institute of audio research) in NYC this past May. so with school, and work (trying to pay my bills son...) music has been a slower process. it is NOT, nor will ever be postponed, but rather i can only work on music 3hrs every week, which is not a lot of time to get much done. as i am still only a student of music engineering i still hit major setbacks in the recording process, my skills not being at the caliber that i want them to be. so unfortunately i rather put nothing out than put out crap. u only get to make one first impression and one shot is usually all u get to get new people to pay attention to ur music. so i do hope to make a 3 song EP very soon and once that is complete i will start playing shows which is definitely where i think i shine the most. so once that gets rollin i hope to see u all at some shows helpin me out and showin ur support. 

i will leave this post with sort of a rough poem that will soon become a song. 

but first i would just like to take this time to give a shout out to my good friend Keenan Gaynor of Declanswell. recently he along with a few other friends launched an amazing new music media page. their focus, to give exposure to exceptional underground, and unknown artists. the page has great articles addressing the state of music and interviews with local musicians. yesterday they just posted their first podcast which they will be doing every month. this allows u to literally hear the bands these guys are talking about. so please do urself a favor and check out some really great music here at www.praiseforwallflower.com

 

alright guys thank u for stopin by, i wish u all well. 

till next time...

"untitled"

so take this riddle down

with pen and ink

we begin to sink

into, a different point of view...

and find wut we found

an uncertainty 

that will stay with me

till i clean up 

and my life has turned around...

things that left, and go to shore

we never see her anymore

and i cant take it,

no i cant take it...

all of the looks 

and all of the fights 

take these walls down

just take these walls down

and all the pain, u caused when u

abandoned all u thought u knew

and left the lie u fed me all my life...

and the pain, eats me up inside

so much that i cant fall asleep at night 

will i ever reach solid ground?

 

What Boys Become...

so here we r again

prolonging something 

we both know we should end

my hands r tied

we dance tonight

wut we lost 

we will never find again

but have no fear 

babe ur heart will mend

and everything 

u thought u knew about everything

crumbled right beneath ur feet 

and now ur drowning

and i once thought i was a man

ready to take on anything 

life could throw at me

but i slipped and i feel 

so far now i cant tell 

which way to go 

i guess that just goes to show

nothing happens like u plan it

so take back these lies

i told so many times

ill be better

its now or never

and i've found these words

to mean more to me now

than back when i said them to u 

wut boys become...

one last chance 

better make this one count

before u run out on me again...

back when everything 

i thought i knew about everything

crumbled right beneath my feet

i've been drowning...

"Kiss Goodbye"

and this kiss

was meant to be a goodbye 

but all it did 

was brought me back in

with more questions of why

why do we fight 

why cant we be

and just start over

from the beginning

dont go and leave me here 

all alone my dear

just because...

and this kiss 

was meant to be a goodbye

but all it was was a poor attempt 

that showed us our youth was ignorance

will u wait for me 

ill be there soon...

fly away from these dark days

will u fly away with me

fly away from loneliness 

trust in me and you wont need it

dont go and leave me here 

all alone my dear 

just because...

"Letters Lost"

y is this so hard

we havent talked recently

but ive been thinking

maybe too much

but i cant stop thinking about u

i dont know 

this is too scary for me 

ill run away

i dont care

thiss is too scary

ill run away...

now i dont know wut to say 

and i dont even know if u still care

because i have tried

your never honest with me

about ur feelings

do u care?

now if i dont have to love u

then i wont have to miss u

if i never love 

then ill never lose

if i never love 

then ill never leave u

now i dont know wut to say

this just wont go away

i cant take it anymore

wut am i killing myself for

time and time

time and time again...

everytime i close my eyes i see ur face

and everytime i see u i want to be near u

but i will get over this get over u...

ill run away...